Thursday, 30 January 2014

GAD- My Anxiety


My Anxiety Story

From the age of eight I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder. I would stress about the smallest things in junior school such as my handwriting, homework etc just these small issues I recognised would affect me and  would lead to an anxiety attack which felt like I was dying as you don't know what's happening at that age. My anxiety attacks can range from having shortness of breath, chest pains, feeling weak, nauseous the list goes on, it even gets as bad as fainting and violently vomiting to the point I can't stop and the attack feel as if I can no longer breathe. 

With time I have been able to know the signs, such as sweaty palms, dry mouth and nausea. I still will never be able to control it fully. I have learnt through the years that most people with an anxiety disorder have triggers and I certainly know I have a few. And although I still live with it to this day and forever more, it is best for anyone to know the signs, and with knowing the signs have plans for when one is about to happen. 

As I have got older I struggle to leave home due to my anxiety and the fear of other people (Which I can discuss in another post), I find when I do leave just to go to the shops, it is beneficial that I have a routine check and that I have a plan b just in case anything was to happen, i.e. alternative routes home, always having a snack to calm my nerves, carrying water, tissues and anything else that I may need for a given situation. 

There is no cure for having anxiety and I wanted to be able to share this in order for those who are unaware or may be going through something similar to understand how I deal with my own anxiety. 

You may be wondering or asking yourself.. Well why doesn't she just get anxiety tablets, the answer to this is I never want to be dependant on tablets for the rest of my life as I feel that it is unhealthy relying on a tablet to rescue you when your body and mind should be enough (even though it isn't most of the time). After suffering four years of depression and medication it is something I would prefer not to go back to depending on. I want to know that I am not dependent on any medication, plus I already take medication for life for other health issues and wouldn't want to be pill popping different medication every hour of the day. 

My advice to those who may be going through this or think this is what they may have is to firstly talk to your doctor about your anxieties and worries and secondly figure out what might be some of the main triggers and how you can recover from the situations that may occur. For example a big trigger for me is trains, I already become anxious walking by myself, so being on a train alone and being claustrophobic is a trigger. Therefore I try to either travel with someone I know during peak times, or if I have free range of when to go, leave at a time that the trains will be least packed.

I am still trying to understand and control my anxiety but after having it for a long time, it has become easier to deal with. I still have attacks and bad days but doesn't everyone? I always try to stay positive and not make it such a negative thing. 

Please feel free to talk to me regarding any questions, but this is just a post to let people know your not alone. 

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  1. Bless you :) I hope you're okay! People often diagnose me with social anxiety and the description matches me perfectly but if I had it diagnosed it would become more of a problem D: always here to chat x

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  2. Hey! Thanks for sending me your link in yesterday's Twitter chat. Sunday's are the day I find really gorge blogs like this! :)

    I think this post is really inspiration so well done to be able to talk so openly about it. I don't react well with stress and anxiety either, I'm always really ill during stressful periods of the year! Thank you for sharing this with me.

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    Vicky xx
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    1. Thank you so much, It's nice to share the load to let people know they aren't alone. x

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  3. Aww, this is so touching! Thanks for sharing this, its amazing that you are able to be open about this!! xxx
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  4. This is so brave of you to share this, I have issues myself but am not confident enough with them to share... hopefully I can add a 'yet' to that sentence!

    Jenn www.BarelyThereBeauty.com | UK Beauty Blog

    xx

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    1. Thank you so much honey, you should defo share your experiences. x

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